a.very wasted youth

the x is still out for blood. but enough is enough already!

http://jibberjabber-blahblahblah.blogspot.com/2006/08/skin-deep.html

for me, it does not matter what happens between our respective lawyers because when all the facts are on the table i am confident in the outcome. what matters is the amount of time spent on good intentions being wasted by a lengthy court process. for instance, we were supposed to be seeing professionals to help little 'a', not to improve our respective legal positions.

i've always known the ex is only doing what she thinks is best without realising how much it is fueled by her anger and resentment towards me. ultimately, i am not the one who has to bear the burden of these feelings/issues... our daughter is. i can deal with her actions (personally and legally) against me and i can live with the fact that she remain unhappy... but little 'a' can't.

it is her choice and hers alone to stop or continue.

freud once said; "show me the boy of 7 and i'll show you the man". we only have 3 more years before little 'a' turns 7...

show me the girl.

it is over.
we are both great.
we are needed equally.
i am happy.
you are angry.
she is in distress.
it is your choice...
stop or continue,
ignorance or assistance.
i fear your resentment
and its effect
on our little one.
open your eyes.
please stop
before the toll
is her burden alone.

a.very gradual existence

she's 4.5 now... my little 'a'.

although i haven't posted in a long long time i just wanted to write something current. so, here's a summary of important events since my last posting.

- having tonnes of fun with little 'a'

- grief and misery with my ex (i think she's banging her lawyer)

- managed to send my lawyers kids to a nice private school

- closure is closer ... missing valentine

- bought an old home and doing tonnes of renos (loving it). that's my bitch helper... lol.

- work is gangbusters

- love is looming

- life is good

see ya next year!